I forgive myself…

Being self employed is amazing.

I set my own hours, I pick and choose  what pile of work to tackle next, I can take walks when I want!

Sort of…

I “should” have spent about 4 hours today working on pouches, napkins and more for my Eco-TAV line so that I would have LOADS of stock for tomorrow’s Dancers’ Bazaar.

BUT… I was tired of sewing… so I did housecleaning instead.

For which, I will forgive myself  because, as my sis-in-law put it, “It makes me feel good and it’s the one thing we can control”, [ paraphrased from a telephone convo a couple of weeks back].

Ya see, not only do I have a booth in the Dancers’ Bazaar, but I organize it as well.  I started back in May, 1999; hosting the Dancers’ Bazaar under my TAV Creations/ Belly Dancing For Fun company, we had 7 tables.  It was great fun, so I started doing it twice a year!

Since then, a few years have passed and it has grown to its present size of 41 tables – pretty much selling out in advance of each event.  Twice a year, I book the hall, contact the vendors and get things rolling so that my students, my friends, my colleagues and my business buds can have a chance to get together and shop, swap, socialize and jingle!

It’s been coasting along pretty well for these years, with a few hiccups to keep me crazy!  It was always on Sunday until 2 Bazaars ago, when our time slot was booked up by a now defunct, weekly flea market – so after trying two Saturdays, I’ll check with the vendors to see if they want to go back to Sundays or stick with Saturdays…

As organizer, head control freak and crazy person du jour, I arrive an hour before the vendors – unless they are planning to come help set up.  My team of volunteers are saints – especially @wtl, my fabulous husband of 12 years, thank you very much!

The rest of the volunteers shift and rotate with a solid core group including Linda and Catharine, and a few more ladies who are amazing.  They may miss one DB but are back at the next one to help everything fall into place.  I know I could not do it without their consistent and competent help.

So, today, instead of sewing – which was on top of the receipt printing, assembling of the changing rooms, signage, mirrors, and balloons for the DB itself, plus packing up the stock I do have to sell, display mannequins, costumes, photo albums and more for my own booth- where was I?  Oh yeah, instead of sewing, I cleaned. and it FEELS GOOD!

After spending the previous part of the week sewing, I had storage boxes overflowing with fabrics – will I make a skirt out of this?  Should I hold off and make a top later?  Can This work for a veil? – uh no… and then onto the reclaimed textiles bins for the Blossom Bags – will these go together ? is this washable? Do I have cord or ribbon for the straps to match this?

Oh and a note on donated fabrics – if they have been around…

  • musty spaces,
  • smokey spaces,
  • unknown smell spaces

…there may be serious implications to the designer/seamstress who has “sensitivities”…sigh….

I can only work with the fabrics after they have been washed, or air them out REALLY WELL first.  But they are some pretty colours and textures, so while I may get ill while working with them, they will be gorgeous when finished!

Check out the Easter Egg Blossom Bag :

Thanks to Michele for the outer fabric and chunky cording and to Roxane for the inner fabric.  Ya gotta see this one in person!

So, off I go now to prep for my second client appointment today – I was not planning on seeing folk while I was going to be SO FOCUSED on Bazaar sewing, but there ya go – I need to work on whatever is calling for my attention at the moment – and sometimes clients are the best thing going!  Actually, many times, they are the best thing going – they want what I am making so I know there’s compensation coming at the end of each little tunnel.

All righty then, this is what I am surrounded with right now:

Actually, that looks pretty tame – I couldn’t get everything into the shot!  The camo garment bag is full of costumes for sale – you wanna see them – come out tomorrow!

Later, I’ll head out for a walk with @wtl to stretch my legs, get some fresh air – tis gorgeous out there – and take the evening off… and tomorrow I’ll be hard at it from sunrise to sunset – and enjoying every minute of it!

Hope you have a great day/ weekend/ week and can make some choices based on what will help you feel good without feeling guilty about it “not being what you should be doing”!




3 thoughts on “I forgive myself…

  1. I almost want to drop by to see what you’ve made with the fabrics I gave away. Almost .. unfortunately, I’m feeling a little bit too much pressure to get a few things done this weekend, that I doubt I’ll drop by.

    Thanks for the fabric bits via Gailene. While not cotton, they’ll make great scrappy bookmarks. I’ll save one for you.

    Hope you got my email about saving a square of the Mexican fabric, if you can for me.

    Have a great show, as I’m sure it will be. If you’re going for dinner after, let me know where, I just may drop in. 🙂


  2. I did not get your message about the Mexican fabric – but yes I still have about a metre left I think!!

    Have a great weekend and I’ll have more fun stuff made for the go green expo- March 20-21

    Off to my date night!!

    Sent from my iPod – so I will confirm any important info when at my computer later!! TAV/Halyma

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